To understand this post, you may want to read the previous one first! https://startingfromthemiddleblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/11/why-am-i-depressed/
I have a good job, a nice home and three beautiful and healthy children.
My dad has survived lung cancer and his prostate cancer is in remission. He is still with us.
My relationship with my mum has improved. She is happy and I know she will always be there if I need her.
Never say never. The job I have now is suitable for my situation on the whole. I get time off with my children. My job is enjoyable and challenging and I am good at it. There will be time for change in the future when the moment is right.
My children know they are loved. They know they can depend on me. They may not have as much as some but they have more than others. They are polite and well mannered and have a healthy interest in reading and history and technology, of course.
Happiness is not just for those in a relationship. I can be happy without a man. But at the same time, love could be on the horizon til the day I die.
At least I know that the connection exists. Somewhere, out there is another connection – so strong that nothing will keep us apart.
I tried my best to keep my marriage alive. What I have now are lots of happy memories, three beautiful children and a much better relationship with their dad.
As I write, I am an able bodied woman with no major health concerns other than the need to lose weight. It could be worse.
Life can be good if we open our eyes to it.