Grief and self preservation

Feeling very numb. My head is aching from the strain of trying to convince myself that he is gone and not coming back. Self preservation is a powerful thing. And then, when it does sink in for a moment, I can’t breathe and I lose every thought but the grief of losing him, my crying uncontrollable 😔

Dad died at 1am today. Although I know what happened, I was there, I can’t see it in my mind. My brain is protecting me from the images and sounds of my Dad’s death.

I know this is just a stage. I know that it’s going to get worse. This feels bad enough.

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