Lost

Well-meaning people are beginning to get on my nerves.

“It is meant to be”

“It is a fresh start”

“A chance to try something new”

“A chance to do what you really want”

Here is the thing:

I’ve not just potentially lost my job. I’ve lost so much more:

Faith in myself

Trust in myself and others

Pride

My sense of achievement

Everything I have worked hard for

Who I am.

I’m not beautiful. I’m not slim or sexy. I’m not intelligent. But I was successful. I worked hard and I made it.

And now it is lost. I’m lost. Because I don’t know who I am without it. Or if I will ever have the strength again to find something else.

4 thoughts on “Lost

  1. Well-meaning comments are often the worst and the most hurtful… But you haven’t lost who you are. They have lost you. You’ve gained the experience, knowledge, the maturity and insight for yourself, and those things are still with you. I think you have every right to be upset, hurt, disappointed, angry, sad, raging, etc. It’s a shitty situation to be in, it’s wrong and unnatural. But your employment is not you. You’ve given your job blood, sweat and tears because of who you are, not because *that job* for *those people* was so special and made you you. In your next job, you will throw yourself into it in the same way, because of the personality you bring to the job. The magic ingredient that is YOU, which turns a job description into contributions, decisions, results, projects – into reality, if you will.

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    1. 😍😍😍 one day, I’m going to meet up with you and buy you a wonderful lunch for all the amazing advice and kindness you always show. You always have the right words xx

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