Well-meaning people are beginning to get on my nerves.
“It is meant to be”
“It is a fresh start”
“A chance to try something new”
“A chance to do what you really want”
Here is the thing:
I’ve not just potentially lost my job. I’ve lost so much more:
Faith in myself
Trust in myself and others
My sense of achievement
Everything I have worked hard for
Who I am.
I’m not beautiful. I’m not slim or sexy. I’m not intelligent. But I was successful. I worked hard and I made it.
And now it is lost. I’m lost. Because I don’t know who I am without it. Or if I will ever have the strength again to find something else.