Maelstrom

Exhaustion.

Change in weather – it is cold and rainy here.

Messy, dirty house – courtesy of my daughter.

Menstruation starts after 40 days – PMS, period pain and fatigue.

Menstruation starts – part of me didn’t want it to start.

Be it my period or over eating, I’ve put weight on. I can feel it.

My settlement money has finally arrived. It is less than I thought (courtesy of tax, thank you). I don’t know what to do with it.

I’m missing him. I’m missing him. Everything. His sounds, his smell, his touch, his taste, his love. I’m bereft.

I don’t know when I’m going back.